The Novie Military Days
My life in the military was quite interesting and difficult at the same time. Looking back on my time within the military like structure I mostly think that it was a waste of my time to be there. However, since everything is a learning experience, then perhaps I did learn quite a bit.
One of the things I've learned so far is that civilian life is more of a pretend life.
Everything is cut up nice and neat in a dish were blatantly labeled, you can complain about food not being served properly, and you can run to the pharmacy to get whatever you need for an upset stomach.
However, the same is not true of being within the military life. For those of you who are nonmilitary, we call you "civilians". Don't be offended! It is just a linear way of categorizing military folk from civilian folk.
As a civilian you have the ability to do what we would call "play," however as a military individual one small move or one error can cost you your life and the life of your comrades.
It was interesting to note that during my garrison time, which means during that time outside of real war missions, it was a bit interesting to see the distinctions between the treatment.
A garrison soldier, for example, has to shine his boots and maintain a professional military appearance. However, when you're in the field, or so-called missions, there is very little time to shine boots and worry about the stains in your clothing. There is some of my tours, I was also astonished to see how many natural elements, such as bacteria, parasites, bugs, indigenous animals, and even the temperature climate can render an individual immobile. As a matter of fact, a few of my comrades have now moved on to transitions of the afterlife because of the situations.
There's also a sense of awareness that you gain from the military experiences that you cannot understand in civilian life. This is highly due to the fact that within civilian life, or play life, you can sometimes take things back around to your local police officer to complain. It is this structure of fear and false security that sometimes creates a pattern of cyclic failures within civilian life. So I at least learned that much. One would think that having this type of knowledge on how to avoid such failures and how to promote better living would be a valuable resource in civilian life. But nothing could be further from the truth.
Because military life has what you would call a "raw factor".
The raw factor simply means that things are not refined and carefully delegated or carefully treated. The "raw factor" is closely related to "Only the strong will survive." Accept in this case, it's more like, "Only the ones that know what they're doing will survive."
Allow me to give you a small example:
Sahm, a very good friend of mine, was setting up his Rat Rig in order to establish communications between the soldiers. A Rat Rig is a shelter that is built on a vehicle, something like a truck, where one man can place an antenna for communication. He normally has the live there by himself for several weeks or several months, establishing a communication link between friendly forces. Because of the high voltage equipment that is within the Rat Rig, soldiers need to pound a 6 foot long metal rod into the ground using a sledgehammer. Depending on the terrain, this can take several hours. Then you must tie a steel cable from the grounding rod and onto a specific location on the Rat Rig.
It just so happened that the U.S. Army had created a sectional grounding rod. Each section was 3 feet in length and needed to be placed together. But unknown to Sahm, someone else had pounded the rod into the ground. When he returned to his Rat Rig and grabbed onto the latch to open the door, electrical currents jolted his body several feet away from the Rat Rig. Sahm was then sent to the hospital, via helicopter, and there he laid nearly dead for several months.
These sort of things seldom happen in civilian life.
Another common theme in the life of a soldier is the fact that loved ones could not stand the extended long times by themselves. Therefore, loyalty was seldom found amongst couples. The divorce rate was extremely high. These are just some of the items and ideas that one has to learn within a military confined area. Hence, the loyalty among soldiers is usually very high.
You can learn a great deal of information or a great deal lessons being a soldier if you understand the complications of the "raw factor".
In civilian life one tends to be "polite" and not have to mean it. However, in military life loyalty and attention to detail is more efficient because it can save your life. Hence, there is very little room for being polite in certain stressful situations. Great Masters of the martial arts and great Masters of spiritual living seem to share a very similar trait, and that the understanding of politeness or the so-called "love" factor is regarded highly different. However, most civilians are accustomed to be treated politely, and therefore very little actually gets done sometimes, or is misinterpreted.
Still, I would have preferred to travel upon another route. As I look back.
What I have gained in knowledge and in discipline, and what has kept me alive and well for such a long time, I have lost in relationships and understandings. You see, the human psyche gravitates towards that which it knows best. I think I have been fortunate in that I do not act like a military person, and I do not act like a civilian person either. I am by no means a little of either. However, I find myself caught between unknown territories, dejected by all sides when it comes to mannerisms.
There is an advantage, however, in that because the human psyche gravitates to what it knows best, one can use psychology to get along better with folks. The funny part about the situation is that most people do not want to be lied to or patronized, let alone handled with psychology. Once they understand that they are encountering someone who understands the psyche of the human being, civilians tend to panic at the word "manipulation".
I sometimes find this completely ludicrous, since one gravitates towards what one wants anyway. In other words there is no way to make someone do what they don't want to do if they don't want to do it. I believe people enjoy categorizing other people because of their own fears and worries and doubts.
So in some ways being in the military does help me understand where I stand and with whom I stand. It still doesn't help very much in relationships.
I must say that there have been very many deaths in my tour of the military, and perhaps one of the reasons why I feel it is important, is knowing what happens after you die. This was a big secret that Buddha said but is seldom taught. I guess for most civilians, it's okay to pretend you're not going to die to the day of death. But then you're cut short and don't know what to do or where you're going, or what you're going to see, and you become afraid. Personally, having watched so many military movements and having studied the history of this planet, as it continuously goes in cycles of war and famine and disease, it only stands to reason to understand the "raw factor", and at the very same time, live the polished civilian life.
Anyway, I do not like watching war films or any film that deals with the harming of other human beings. I think I've seen enough of that.
I sometimes wonder why most movies insist on having some type of killing or some type of harm. As a matter of fact, in Germany there are a great deal of films that have no killing whatsoever. It seems like as an entity living on planet Earth, we have accustomed ourselves to believing that obtaining losses and having killing in our lives is commonplace. However, commonplace means exactly that! It means that someone continuously places that circumstance there. So I feel that the only ones we have to blame are ourselves.
It is unfortunate that having had the military life, I saw a good place and a good reason why military actions are needed. However, it all boils down to one thing: Individuals having different perspectives and not being able to accept each other.
As soon as I ended my career in the military, I took upon myself to take that knowledge and convert it into something useful. It was sort of like taking the Art of War and restoring it to its proper origins. This would prove to be a very tedious adventure, but something worth my time. Many individuals enjoy the idea, however could not stay away from conflict or disloyalty or confusions long enough to make anything work.
Several companies' structures or ideas were formed and formulated and seemed to prove successful, only that the individuals within the company structure would fall apart and fail due to the fragility of their egos and misunderstanding of larger concepts.
As I would later come to understand that even the higher realms between love and light in the darkness and confusion are also within the same dilemma in the same drama. Hence as above so is below.
I would say overall, I took extreme measures to try to achieve the unachievable, and taking information that has already been embedded into our common daily lives and attempted to free individuals from the circumstances of such ideas of conflict and war.